During the nine months of pregnancy I didn’t think this day would ever come. Up until the moments before your baby is born, you still don’t believe that you are going to have a baby to look after, you definitely don’t picture your first day with your baby alone. So as I sit and write this I am alone with my daughter (albeit she is asleep (not complaining)).

Mentioned in a previous blog post, Shannan is breast feeding, meaning if she wants to go out and about we have to plan ahead .. way ahead! The day before heading out she has to express, getting bottles ready so that I can feed Penelope, which isn’t as easy as it sounds. Breast feeding and expressing has its difficulties. The main one being the demand that Penny has on Shannan and the amount of time she is breast feeding, so finding time to express, and having the milk available, is tough.

Luckily, due to early planning, I have two bottles sat in the fridge waiting for sleeping beauty to wake up. Also I have had plenty of time to practice using a bottle to feed Penny and have worked out what works and what doesn’t. I think this is vital as having your partner there to help out or jump in if your baby doesn’t like bottle feeding, which I believe can happen.

Should you be nervous?

If you had asked me three weeks ago if I would be nervous to be left alone with my one week old baby I would have had no hesitation in saying yes. It’s extremely daunting to think that you were the only one there, no one to ask advice, no one to help with changing and feeding.

Move on three weeks and nothing can hold me back. I feel like I know Penny and I know what she wants when she tell’s me. Albeit via a lovely high pitch, ear piercing, headache inducing cry. The only thing that does make me nervous is if she wakes up whilst I am half way through watching the F1. I’ll have to have words if she does.

I think nerves are a good thing. Nerves mean you care. Being nervous is natural and the only way to get over those nerves is to challenge yourself and conquer those nerves.

How did it go?

It could not have gone more smoothly. Penny was an absolute dream. She slept most of the day apart from when she was feeding. I managed to get this post written and also watch the F1. So she was either being very good for her Dad or she’s now going to expect something in return. Luckily she isn’t old enough for that yet but she’s learning a lot day by day, so I’m sure it won’t be long.

A special mention.

I do however have to give a special mention to single mums and single dads. You guys are incredible and I don’t know how you do it. If you are the lucky ones who have a partner to support you, don’t take them for granted, and help each other out as much as possible. A job shared is a job halved after all.